Have been waking up around 3 to 4 p.m! =.= GOSH! I'm crazy!

Yesterday Nely called mum and received BAD news that she has passed away. ='( life...

Anyway! Lidya! She's not that cousin. She's my cousins' cousin. *hope u get what I mean =.=*

Couldn't sleep for the whole night. And now my head is spinning. @.@

How many days left for hols? arggh.. I should spend some time with dear.Gotta find him today and if I sleep, I'll end up wake up in the evening and won't be able to meet him. =( After hols, he'll be busy with his projects and presentations. And I'll be busying with? should be RWP project and IDEAS project. =.= haiz. Maths exam is coming! 27 June! ='( I have tried to revise as much as I can!! Now left with one revision exercise. Hope can finish it SOON.

Dear is at school now. =( doing his project. Hope he can finish real soon. So we can meet up earlier. =)

anyway, Lidya!! =( I miss playing pool with ya! be back to Singapore SOON! arggh. We gonna eat NICE foods, POOL and TAKE NEO NONE STOP! Wanna try my cooking?? haha! U better score well for your sem 2 and get a sit in MelbU dentistry! *is this how you spell that course?=p*
Janice and I are waiting for you right in this small dot on the map,Singapore. =) Small but meaningful place for drong3tak. =) miss those days.

Loves..

muach.

ciao!

I'm really crazy. haha. can't even type properly right now. why? =.=

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I'm so sad right now. Dissapointed on myself. Why I always let people down. Why am I such a failure? But I know everyone born to this cruel world for a reason and for a mission. Read an entry from Nely's blog. She got a NICE story from a guy's blog. It's so nice and eventhough I read it quite some time ago but the question just keep turning in my brain. When can I accomplish my mission and leave this world for good? When? Yes. I'm only 19 but this means nothing. People can die right after they come to this world. But I've lived for an extra 19 years, isn't it sound alot? but compare with my parents. They are 50 now. Living for half a century in this world. If I don't encounter any accident or get any sickness, I still have many more years to go. Is this a good or a bad news? God knows.

Received a news about one of my relative. She's about 30 something. She married at the age of 30+ also. Have two children and now... she's dying because of cancer. From what I have been hearing about, her husband is a worst guy. SUX. They married because some match making sessions and they both were already considered too old and parents were rushing them to get married. So this marriage took place. The lady is from a high income family. She's the only daughter and have a elder brother. She's always pamper by her family as she's the youngest and also the only daughter in the family. See.. how good is her life before marriage. And after she got married, her husband is that kind of guy who listen more to his mum rather than do his own judgement. =.= and his mum is a bad one!! bully my relative...=( so they ended up quarrel several times. Ok. This is just background story of her.

Then she was sick and her husband brought her to Malacca (Malacca is famous in my hometown for their medical service , Mahkota Hospital). So without any notice to her family, her husband signed the operation agreement and she went through an operation for removal of the ovarium. When she was back to Indonesia, her brother was so shock as her husband didn't even seek advice from her family. Then her brother brought her to Singapore for check ups. And she went through chemotherapy and took some medicine. She was brought back to her husband house and her husband was told to bring her to Singapore for coming check ups and take care of her. Anyway, he don't want people to say he is irresponsible. Then now we got news about her condition is getting worse. She lose weight drastically and her stomach is bloated and can't pass out the urine. When doctor help her to suck out her urine. It's all blood. =( They said is because the medicine is not suitable for her. So her husband should be taking her to hospital immediately after she show these symptoms. But for your information, she was brought to hospital by her own brother. Her husband was no where to be found. And some people called her brother and her brother rushed to her place to carry her down from upstairs and drive her to hospital. I heard that her brother was crying. They don't even dare to let her mum know about this. Her mum is quite old and they don't want to hurt her with this news.

Nely was telling me that her children are still very young and are taken care by the husband's housekeeper. =.= when she was alright and healthy, she doesn't even get the chance to take care of her own children as the housekeeper keep taking her children away. Worst thing is her husband will never listen to her but the housekeeper. And I also heard that her children don't really recognise their own mother. sigh. Nely commented that her children won't even know that their only mum will be dying or even they'll grow up without any memory about their mum. This is so unfair.

Sorry to blog such a long story.

But I just want to let people know. It's better to marry late than ending up with this kind of marriage. And life is so unfair to many people, but why I'm still living and can't do a thing to stop all these nonsense? am I useless? Yes.

ciao~

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I'm so sad right now. Dissapointed on myself. Why I always let people down. Why am I such a failure? But I know everyone born to this cruel world for a reason and for a mission. Read an entry from Nely's blog. She got a NICE story from a guy's blog. It's so nice and eventhough I read it quite some time ago but the question just keep turning in my brain. When can I accomplish my mission and leave this world for good? When? Yes. I'm only 19 but this means nothing. People can die right after they come to this world. But I've lived for an extra 19 years, isn't it sound alot? but compare with my parents. They are 50 now. Living for half a century in this world. If I don't encounter any accident or get any sickness, I still have many more years to go. Is this a good or a bad news? God knows.

Received a news about one of my relative. She's about 30 something. She married at the age of 30+ also. Have two children and now... she's dying because of cancer. From what I have been hearing about, her husband is a worst guy. SUX. They married because some match making sessions and they both were already considered too old and parents were rushing them to get married. So this marriage took place. The lady is from a high income family. She's the only daughter and have a elder brother. She's always pamper by her family as she's the youngest and also the only daughter in the family. See.. how good is her life before marriage. And after she got married, her husband is that kind of guy who listen more to his mum rather than do his own judgement. =.= and his mum is a bad one!! bully my relative...=( so they ended up quarrel several times. Ok. This is just background story of her.

Then she was sick and her husband brought her to Malacca (Malacca is famous in my hometown for their medical service , Mahkota Hospital). So without any notice to her family, her husband signed the operation agreement and she went through an operation for removal of the ovarium. When she was back to Indonesia, her brother was so shock as her husband didn't even seek advice from her family. Then her brother brought her to Singapore for check ups. And she went through chemotherapy and took some medicine. She was brought back to her husband house and her husband was told to bring her to Singapore for coming check ups and take care of her. Anyway, he don't want people to say he is irresponsible. Then now we got news about her condition is getting worse. She lose weight drastically and her stomach is bloated and can't pass out the urine. When doctor help her to suck out her urine. It's all blood. =( They said is because the medicine is not suitable for her. So her husband should be taking her to hospital immediately after she show these symptoms. But for your information, she was brought to hospital by her own brother. Her husband was no where to be found. And some people called her brother and her brother rushed to her place to carry her down from upstairs and drive her to hospital. I heard that her brother was crying. They don't even dare to let her mum know about this. Her mum is quite old and they don't want to hurt her with this news.

Nely was telling me that her children are still very young and are taken care by the husband's housekeeper. =.= when she was alright and healthy, she doesn't even get the chance to take care of her own children as the housekeeper keep taking her children away. Worst thing is her husband will never listen to her but the housekeeper. And I also heard that her children don't really recognise their own mother. sigh. Nely commented that her children won't even know that their only mum will be dying or even they'll grow up without any memory about their mum. This is so unfair.

Sorry to blog such a long story.

But I just want to let people know. It's better to marry late than ending up with this kind of marriage. And life is so unfair to many people, but why I'm still living and can't do a thing to stop all these nonsense? am I useless? Yes.

ciao~

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heyy!
previous post was told to do by fazli! haha.
ok. Received a msg from Lidya! lol. Didnt realise until i got the msg ;p today's date is so unique!
20-06-2006
^^ got it?

oh well...
another day has passed... so fast!! =.=
i still sleep late at night! wat's wrong w me!! ='( gonna try to restrict myself from sitting in front of laptop after 8 or 9 at night! so i wont get hook on it. haiz.

Dear is so so mad at me for not sleeping earlier! T_T arggh. he even accompany me till late night. i mean morning! i have been sleeping around 5 or 6 a.m! so sry to make him adopt this unhealthy habit! =( bad bad bad!! *sry dear*

Ok. nothing else to blog.
gonna bathe n go down my block to eat at the coffeeshop coz nely wanna study there.
might also be doing some maths tutorial that i've been running away from! =.=
hope i can finish them all!

HAPPY MUGGING NELY!!

Loves,
miRa

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What were you doing in secondary school?
1) go to canteen during recess with Lidya, Janice and Angel!
2) eat at the same malay stall and almost eating the same dishes every weekday
3) go to toilet before going for classes
4) late for classes with drong3 tak
5) chatting in classes
6) messaging in class
7) never be attentive in chemistry classes
8) see if Lidya is dozing off (she always dozes off in class =.=)
9) busy copying physics homework
10) hang out with Lidya or Drong3Tak after school
11) get MC on Fridays! (self-declare for long weekends ;p )

Five of your favourite singers / bands?
1) keep changing
2) -
3) -
4) -
5) -

Five things you would do if you were a millionaire?
1) Donate!!
2) Give my parents!
3) Travel!
4) Shop shop shop
5) Pamper myself

Five things you like doing?
1) shopping
2) blogging
3) read blog
4) SLEEP
5) do facial mask

Five things you would never buy, wear or get?
1) no idea...
2) =.=
3) -
4) -
5) -

Five favourites? ( in no particular order)
1) jeans
2) denim skirt
3) cooking!
4) accecories.
5) ice cream! (especially swensens mango ice cream cake)

Five people to do this? (sabo touch)
1) Lidya
2) Janice
3) -
4) -
5) -

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exhausted!

I doubt I can run in the coming Poly50! ='( arggh.. went to gym room with dear today. Only 5 mins of treadmill and I was sweating like hell and feel the pain on my calves and thighs. This shows how long I've not been doing any exercise. T_T bad bad bad!!

Oh ya! went to a temple at Toa Payoh with Nely in the afternoon before going to meet dear. This temple look quite old. Heard from Nely's friends that this temple is quite famous in Singapore. It's Shuang Lin Cheng Huang Temple, located near Kim Keat Link. We went there for praying Confucius. =) Quite a number of people was there to pray.

hehe.. yeahh.. that's what I did for today.

Another news about our moving...
we owe my aunt internet fee for about 3 years!! arggh. Just realised this when we called Singtel to terminate the line. =.= so we added up n it cost about $1870! T_T luckily my dad is not that angry. =D

ok.. that's all for this entry! gonna sleep earlier tonight! ;p hehe..

ciao~~

muachh!

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hey hey!!
finally got my O level cert!!^^
Nely accompanied me cabbed to Ping Yi =p oh..but can't collect for Lidya and Angel..so they gotta come Singapore by themselves or write me an authorize letter! ;p My dad came Singapore today!! but I just knew it right in the morning. So was thinking can't meet him. Then I called him after got my cert and he said he gonna stay abit later this time (until 6.30p.m.) So Nely and me rushed to meet him. I suggested to take bus 30 as I heard it is express bus to harbour.
While waiting for the bus...











LoL and I'm wrong! we board the bus and asked the driver how long will it take. His answer ,"About an hour." Oh GOSH!!! We discussed a while and finally alight around an "Ulu place" ermmm... Changi Rd. Shell station. ;p Then wait so long for cab! and finally...










Then met Dad at harbour...
Recommend him this nice food! *Nely n my fav!!*
Roti Tissue a.k.a Paper Prata!










my dad seems to like it too! ;p
after that my dad went back to Indo!
and we met Dear at food court! n went to buy a pair of running shoes!!













then Dear went home while Nely and I came back to Tampines to have our dinner and also mug at coffee bean for awhile. =p
Hmm.. went to shop awhile before mugging though...hikshiks.. feel bad! spend money again!!
Our dinner was awesome!! here's the pics *especially for Lidya to see! ;p muahaha*



















It's Set meal for 2 persons.I can't find the double boil soup pic!! =.= haha.. kk.. enough of pics..;p more June pics view at link --> my pics. (multiply site!) =)

kk..go bathe now! ;p

ciao!

muachh!

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YEAH!!! ^^
just finished watching world cup, England VS Trinidad and Torbago *is this the correct spelling?;p* was bored in first half time. =.= 0 - 0!! my uncle was saying that alot of people will lost money if England gonna lost or draw. haha.. but luckily at 83 min n 91min got in 2 goals for England! ;p yipee.. haha.. so result --> 2 - 0!!

ok.. enough of world cup ;p

slept till 2p.m yesterday.. =D haha.. was planning to go ping yi but after bathed n ate plus chit chatting with aunt... it's already 4p.m so sch has closed. Maybe today gonna wake up abit earlier to get myself down to Ping yi! dun wanna make a trip back to bedok after moving to choa chu kang. =.= it's way too far!

went to popular to collect a book. haha.. met Jie Fang after came out from popular. *recalling...* I met Ridhwan the other day outside popular! wat a coincidence! ;p k.. i noe this is boring!

hahaha... sryy.. can't think of anything to blog..;p

well.. i guess i better go off now or u gonna fall asleep reading my blog.

^^ ciao!

muachh

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SAD

I know there's alot of ways to show LOVE. I know I will never understand LOVE. I know I will be continuosly learning about LOVE. Yeah. I'll learn it for a life time.

But anyone understand why..

When you know he always threaten you... is this LOVE?

When you know he always control you... is this LOVE?

When you know you lost your friends because of him... is this LOVE?

When you know he will never apologize to you eventhough he's wrong... is this LOVE?

When you know you have to give in to him in every arguement... is this LOVE?

When you know he don't even give you basic rights... is this LOVE?

When you know he can't even change a little bit for you... is this LOVE?

When you know he always angry or mad over small things... is this LOVE?

When you know he don't know how to cherish you... is this LOVE?

I repeatedly asked myself the above questions. And the only answer I can get is..

She loves him.

But I can't understand why she loves him. =) and I pray my love for dear will never end up like this.

in my eyes, my heart, my mind, LOVE should be from both sides. When he and she can be giving ALL they can to breed/nurture their LOVE. Not from one side. There is no reason that you can't express your LOVE in the way your LOVE one want you to. Because if you REALLY LOVE he/she, you'll change. Maybe others can't see his/her change. But you know it.

And for the above case. I should have stand in her side, so that I might get the answer. Maybe he has changed but I never know. So... I should respect her LOVE for him. As I will never have the ability to define LOVE.

And sometimes I should learn to give in to her.

lastly, keep my mouth shut! with a smile of course.

=)

oh ok. no more craps.sryy. i'm just using this entry to get a way out of my trouble.n I think I've got my answer.Thanks God.

Ciao~~

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haha.. 2nd post for today!
hmm... feel like post about something to let you guys see what I did in my school.. ;p below is the picture from my workshops! =D

see.. this is my workpiece. Initially it's a rectangular metal piece. Then I saw it into the given size and drill 4 holes to do my chiselling. =)

tadaaa!!! although chiselling and filing ain't that EASY AT ALL! But I made it! =D

another pic! ;p can't resist my happiness! ooopps I should say... sense of fulfillment!! =D

yeahh.. that's all about my workshop. =)

Another one.. I learned new skill for adobe photoshop! Nely give me a website and the author got tutorial for some basic animation skill =D here is the website http://nuwen.com His explanations are very clear and easy to understand for newbie like me =) so if u wanna learn can take a look at his web!

here's what I did!

another one for Lidya ;p

yeahh... that's all =) hope i can improve more on my skill ;p

hmm... SAD right now! quarrel with Nely again ='( i really didn't mean to make her n him quarrel. But I still don't think I'm wrong ok! argghh... forget it. I'm just a mean n selfish human! Anyway.. I gonna cancel my trip to Thai in September. Wanna get a part time during the holidays! ^^ anyone got jobs during that time can contact me ok! ^^ thXx!

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Hi!!!
Today is much better than yesterday... ;p feel better but we (Nely n me) woke up late. After bathe we went out to Sakae Sushi to eat the teatime buffet. We began to eat around 3.30 and then about 4.45, Jinbo came to join us. =) We were quiet hungry as we didn't eat breakfast and lunch but awhile after we started to eat, we felt quite full. =.= so we didn't manage to eat as much as we have planned.

And then we asked for the complimentary jelly and fruits (watermelon). I started off with an apple jelly. And then I took a slice of watermelon but it turned out to taste like rotten watermelon. =.= I swallowed some and the rest I puke out. Afterwards I begin to feel very unwell. And then I took my medicine as usual routine (after food medicine from my Chinese physician). I got the feeling that I wanna vomit. As all of us had finished our meal so we went to settle the bill. And I asked Nely to accompany me to go toilet (this time round I really feel like vomiting) =.= . But Nely was taking out her money so I run to the toilet and VOMIT. It's yucky! The whole basin is filled with my sushi and all that I ate during that meal (what a waste of food!! $17!!!=( )

Then went to take neoprints and popular. Saw Ridhwan near popular there. ;p haha.. my sis like him. Lol she said he's super cute lar... hahaha... especially in the change sex video that they took the other day.. *view at my multiply website* =) it's really funny! Hahaha... nely enjoy watching it and she keep laughing and repeating the clip!
Visit my multiply website for more pics =)

Hmm.. that's all for today. See.. I reached home super early..=.= bored now! Argghh... gonna eat my dinner to replace all those lost food! =)

Ciao~~

Muach!

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Hahaha...
no mood to do maths tutorial.
so ended up updating my blog again.
How's this new skin n new tagboard? ;p
hope u all like it.

ciao~

=)

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='(
bad day!
not feeling well and was late (oh well.. i didn't turn up ='( ) to meet fazli at bedok for our o level cert. *sorry fuzz!* so i postponed it again. Now i'm the only one who hasn't collected o level cert and also Lidya's and Angel's. Hope by tomorrow I'll feel better and get down to Ping Yi for our certs.

Gonna stay at home today. haiz.. so boring!! I don't like to stay in this stuffy room! ='(

Oh ya..Hopefully by 16 June , we'll know the exact date of when we are moving to Choa Chu Kang. Really praying hard that everything will be alright n goes smoothly. Nely and I have packed many of our things. About 70% done. It took us about 2 days and it's really tiring! On last Saturday, we stayed at home just to pack things. We woke up late as usual and started to pack around 2 to 3 p.m (after our breakfast cum lunch) then we packed till about 1a.m! =.= n went to bathe and then went to have our dinner cum supper at the 24 hours coffeeshop just around our block. Almost starve to death.=.= then we went home and continue to pack. Nely fell asleep after I read an article from CLEO (about declutter our room) haha.. stupid her. N i wait until 8 a.m to wake dear up. Then went to sleep. Couldn't sleep till about 10a.m! arggh... n woke up around 5p.m! haha.. wat a healthy life i'm leading huh? ;p my mum gonna kill me if she knew this. As i'm under medication, so like what the doctor keep telling me. I need plenty of rest and healthy life style not only on food but also my body clock. ='( OK. I'll try to sleep earlier! I don't want to go back to the clinic anymore. I want to recover!!
May God Bless Me... amin =)

ok... I gonna do my maths tutorial! ;p

ciao~~

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HAHAHA!!!
So here's yesterday outings:
1.went to meet Janice at taka - 3.00pm *;p late as usual..hehe..supposed to meet at 2.30*
2.received gift from Janice n Lidya *thx!! ^^ nice bag! muachh*
3.eat at ayam penyet ria! *nice!!*
4.shop around Heeren
5.meet Nely at heeren
6.continue to shop and take neo
7.suddenly meet fazli somewhere near heeren*smell something fishy >;)
8.went cathay to accompany nely eat at es teler77 *;p*
9.walk to taka, find seoul garden for like 5 minutes or more *=.=*
10.SURPRISE for me! ^^ a mango cake and they were there to sing me bdae song! *T_T so touched*
11.cut cake n take pics! =)
12.went home

Hahaha... ^^ really THX for the surprise ^^ LOVE YA ALL! I'm so touched =)

yeah...so all pics are uploaded! view at HERE ! ^^

p.s: Sorry dear... i nv keep my promise T_T sryy so sryy...

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Woohooo!!! =D
finished my elearning...=) haha... although alot of them i'm not confidence with... but dear said it's better to submit then no... so i submitted ALL ^^ feel much relax now... hehe.... GREAT! Now is holiday!!! hahaha...

Oh ya... today Janice and I will be going out together!! ^^ hahaha... it's been so long since we go for a shopping trip. haha..I think we never go together before.. We always went with Drong3 tak! Lidya would always be the one who got bullied by us... ^^ and Angel would always be the one nagging that she want shopping but have no money... hahaha... n Janice and me always shopp and shop!!but anyway Janice is always our Shopaholic Queen!=p but now I'm broke...=.= so no more shopping!! maybe window shopping ain't that bad =)

Why I'm broke?
when my elder sister came Singapore on Sunday, she gave me $50 as a gift for my birthday... but I spent them ALL on cosmetic.. I brought an ettusais foundation... which cost me $67 =.= and I treated her and Nely for lunch...=.= about $50 in total... then on Tuesday I went to buy clothes for presentation... two long sleeves shirts and a long black pants... It's Great Singapore Sales hehe.. so in total they only cost me $94+ .and then i brought 1 ring, 1 pendant and 1 necklace at perlini's silver total up about $64+...hehe coz I got 50% discount for my birthday!! hmm... then my mum and dad came on wednesday.. ^^ mum gave me $50 hehe... but I spent it on the spot..hahaha.. wth... I want more money!!! ='( hahaha...

But I still got alot of things to buy!! a leather sling bag! denim shorts! handbags! jackets! sandals!! shoes!! alot alot more...T_T how how how... ='(

k lar... shall blog more about my trip with Janice later! ^^

ciao~~~

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E-learning ain't that easy!!! ='(
Dad n Mum will be coming for my tuition grant signing. =) probably on Wednesday or Thursday.
Hope I manage to submit all the elearning assginments on time.

Received my 1st birthday gift of the year from Dear...haha...at last...;p got a new wallet now... was so sad as my couple wallet with Dear got burnt and a hole stays there permanently T_T and it stinks to a thousand mile...=.= ahaha... although can't get the same one but at least we stick to the same brand..=D Couldn't get the pink le coq sportif jacket...=( 'S' size has sold out both in Taka n Stadium... just my luck... Anyway... thanks alot Dear...=)

Oh well... should off now... ;p

ciao~~~

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=)
woo... celebrated my birthday... =D we went to eat dinner at suki sushi... coz yuki yaki was closed down...=( i wan't honeydew icecream! ='( so after that we went to watch xmen3. It's nice! ^^ so funny...haha.. keep laughing... but cried in one scene when the prof died. T_T then went to dear's place... n sleep till around 08.30a.m n i fried some bread with egg... ;p then we went to sleep again...haha.. we eat without nely...=p lol. Then we went to sleep till 2p.m plus... n nely was so hungry n woke up to eat lunch with us... =)

hmmm.... actually planned to go back indo on my b'dae... but coz of something then i choosed to stay... anyway as compare to last year... my b'dae seems quite sad... as wat Nely said... this year left Dear n her celebrating with me... last year got drong3 tak(Lidya,Janice n Angel) and Sofie. T_T aarghgghh.. miss them like hell when I think about it...talk about Sofie...She called me at the very last moment that she wasn't able to come..T_T haiz... less people... less fun...

nvm! but i do receive lotsa messages! ^^ thx ALL! =) Love ya all!

haha..that's all for this entry... ciaooo~~~

muach!

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^^
finally finished my term tests.. dunno how i'll score..just hope for the best!=p

today!! ahaha... k.. i turn a year older today...;p hmm... it's a miracle huh...hehe... i survive another year! gonna celebrating today by staying overnight at dear's place. Nely and Sofie are also coming along! ^^ how great is that...haha... but this year no more Drong3 tak helping me to celebrate...T_T they called me last night though =) hehe...thanks Gals... Lidya called me for more than an hour from Aussie...;p n Janice managed to ring me eventhough she seems so busy with her shopping trip! ;p we conferenced and it's so great to hear from them. =D
n a few friends sent me message of greetings and wishes. ^^ thanks Triz,Sophia,Belvin and Lina. =)

will be going to eu yan seng clinic for my my appointment...=.= on my birthday!! lol. nvm!! Afterwards I'll hang around there (Plaza Singapura) to get a pair of ear phone for my lappy. hehe.. just downloaded "Skype". Dear suggest me to use this so that I can chat with Lidya without thinking about my phonebill. ;p

Till here then! =)

God Bless!

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